21/90 challenge day one.......

day one:
broke and had that first smoke of the day, followed by greens and it's vital at 9:20......... off to shower and get the stink of smoke off........ 9 cigarettes left in the last pack i have in my possession.......

10:45 - used peppermint sugar scrub on my arms and hands in the shower, followed by peppermint body lotion (both have essential oils!)  taking another dose of it's vital minerals, no additional cigarettes have been had, but i'm curiously having a craving........ brushed my teeth twice!  i've added some mint extract to my water......

12:25 pm - taking another it's vital....... this is hard right now and i'm fighting the urge to smoke all the cigarettes one after another so they're just gone.......

12:40 - one more cigarette gone...... :(

i did get to experience the eclipse with my babies, it was awesome, however i look forward to 7 years from now when they actually all care about watching it.....

2:15 pm - another it's vital and 16 ozs of water down

6:30 - i managed to take a bit of a nap, just had my first caffeine for the day, took another it's vital minerals....... there is a huge change in the way my mouth tastes and i am guessing that's probably a normal thing, maybe it has something to do the the mint extract in my water as well.....

my guess is that this will be my last update for the day, i'm still hacking and coughing from the cold i've picked up, i'm run down and not sure how much more i can actually do today....... final count on smokes today....... 5....... down from 20 a day, that's a number i'm ok with, today........ there are 4 left in that pack and there won't be another pack bought, i am stronger than that........

quitting smoking is not my only goal........ my biggest goal is to find confidence within myself, i've half-assed tried to grow it for years, if you don't water your soil, if you don't move into the sunshine, how can you expect to succeed at anything............ i could sit and make lists of goals a mile long and never accomplish any, so i'm dedicated to working on the biggest one and the one that i CAN control!  i look forward to meeting myself in 6 months!

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