all things green......

so i've been using it works greens daily and i can't say enough good things about them, i have energy with no sudden crashes or shakes, i actually feel good.......... i'm not a big fan of the orange flavored greens, but the berry are good and the chocolate are amazing!!!  the chews - seriously blue berry starburst is the closest comparison i can make....... i know i'm still losing weight, i feel like the process is starting to come together more quickly and i will share inches results and weight as that comes (remember, i won't have a scale so i don't frequently weigh myself)  i started this blog to keep track of my journey and talk honestly about the results of the it works products i'm using........ if at any time you have questions that i haven't answered or want to try them yourself, let me know....... for years i have had an unhealthy relationship with food and drinks....... far too many carbs and far too many cokes......... this weeks water challenge that i'm participating in has opened my eyes some, on the days i drink more water, everything tastes better, more vibrant flavors......... i'm beginning to get a bit antsy about the 21st, knowing that i've never managed to quit smoking for very long.......... my mother smokes and that is usually my breaking point, but since i probably won't be at her house for a couple of months i'm focusing on 21 days to make a habit / 90 days to make a lifestyle.......... i want more than anything to become healthy because i know it goes hand in hand with being happy.......... i want to teach my children by example and be a good role model in all aspects.......... that is a major fail of mine, i accept it and am working very hard to change it.......... i'm still having not so good days, i've been finding that rush of power i felt subsiding some, but i'm looking to get it back......... it's more difficult for me to come here and express myself on the bad days, because i try so hard to keep things positive, but let's be real.......... life is not perfect........ i'm going to have weeks in which i don't write, i'm going to have days where i doubt all my decisions and ability to be a good mother........ the flaws are real, do they make me a bad person............ no, but it's hard to reason with myself when the voice sets in and starts berating me.........  but i am finding that i can find ways to quiet that voice........... many times it is my husband who brings me back around and reminds me to shut that angry little person inside up........... once again i find myself rambling and have to come back to reality......... reality is the dishes stacked beside the sink and the mountain of laundry to run, fold and put away......... reality is the little man who starts preschool in one week and how quiet it is here in this house when most of my children are off at school......... reality is knowing i didn't get this way overnight and it's going to take some time for my new way of thinking to really kick in without me forcing it..........