seriously tired......

i've been going strong, with the help of this entire family, to reduce the amount of stuff in this home........ clothing, large amounts of clothing....... finally being condensed to totes so that i may hopefully redistribute......... i cannot believe the shear volume of it......... i can, but you really wouldn't........ but during my breaks i am leaping into this new chapter, organization is happening and i'm embracing that while i am tired and my body aches.......... things are changing around me at break-neck speed...... the 21st approaches and i'm ready this time.......... the 21/90 rule is something i've probably seen or read but tonight it sticks with me........ 21 days to a new habit / 90 days to a new lifestyle........ that's what this is all about anyway......... mei, the procrastinator extraordinaire ........... not by any means what you would consider a "healthy" lifestylist, in fact i'm still not willing to share my twinkies............ i am embracing a brand new lifestyle........ i don't want to trudge through each day, but have found myself dragging through the day far more times than i care to admit........... 90 days.......... i look forward to meeting the woman on the other side of this........

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